Christines health has continued to degrade due to her own stubbornness and I'm about at the end of my rope. It was a bad judgement call on my part when I agreed to her insistence on going to the AC\DC concert the other night, but I caved. I've dealt with people who have health problems for most of my life; my mother being the worst case. I watched my mother go through pain worse than what's going on here, and she did what she needed to do to stay alive, no matter how bad her pain was. She always fought. I could only hope to be as strong. She just doesn't get that sometimes you just have to suck it the hell up. Taking care of people who are sick comes second nature; from giving Tylenol to changing an IV port (those nurses will send you home with damned near anything if you flirt with the right nurse, I think hus name was Jonathan ), and in home peritoneal dialysis. It just frustrates me to all hell that she's just wallowing and not doing what she should. I always have tried to take care of anyone who needed me and did the right things, but when I have to live this right along with her because she's not listening to her doctor, it just makes me want to go outside for a smoke. Guess I Should put this one out and try again. Ok, I'm done whining.